It has taken me longer to add a new blog post than it should have - I was going to give a list of reasons that are all true - house painting, grumpy toddler....
Although true - it wouldn't have been the truth.
So why?
Because I froze, I looked at the stats page, realised people were actually reading this and I froze. I thought I had to write something interesting and witty and profound, I couldn't do that, so I wrote nothing.
The same thing occurred after winning an award at the round 1 Finale - I froze, I became withdrawn, I thought I had to be "Inspirational" and I had no idea how to do that.
I was petrified when I met 12WBTers - because I felt like I was expected to be something that I am not. I thought they would be disappointed.
After winning the award my main thought was - how do I be this person? what is expected of me?
Then it dawned on me - Nothing, nothing is expected of me. If you are reading this blog you are reading it for your own reasons, you don't want to know about ME - you want to know about YOU!
And maybe somewhere in my journey you might just find another little bit of you.
The Inspiration I get from people like Michelle Bridges or John Lennon or Ben-does-life doesn't belong to them - they don't walk around with a big ol' sack of inspiration like Santa Claus - it belongs to me. I always carry it with me and sometimes I look at someone else's journey and I take that sharp inspirational breath and I let myself have a little piece of it.
So... I will continue to write and I promise not to try and inspire you. :)
Although true - it wouldn't have been the truth.
So why?
Because I froze, I looked at the stats page, realised people were actually reading this and I froze. I thought I had to write something interesting and witty and profound, I couldn't do that, so I wrote nothing.
The same thing occurred after winning an award at the round 1 Finale - I froze, I became withdrawn, I thought I had to be "Inspirational" and I had no idea how to do that.
I was petrified when I met 12WBTers - because I felt like I was expected to be something that I am not. I thought they would be disappointed.
After winning the award my main thought was - how do I be this person? what is expected of me?
Then it dawned on me - Nothing, nothing is expected of me. If you are reading this blog you are reading it for your own reasons, you don't want to know about ME - you want to know about YOU!
And maybe somewhere in my journey you might just find another little bit of you.
The Inspiration I get from people like Michelle Bridges or John Lennon or Ben-does-life doesn't belong to them - they don't walk around with a big ol' sack of inspiration like Santa Claus - it belongs to me. I always carry it with me and sometimes I look at someone else's journey and I take that sharp inspirational breath and I let myself have a little piece of it.
So... I will continue to write and I promise not to try and inspire you. :)
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